Are you a ‘talib’ as in taliban? I think i am..
Whoo, dont get me wrong on those sentence. I believe languange is universal. The meaning of ‘talib’ is seeker of knowledge. Yes, it’s arabic. However we can use the language aswell. [i'm thinking 'out of the box'].
Though i’ve made monthly reflection days ago, suprisingly just a 15 minutes ago i had a discussion with my co-worker that eventually ‘open’ my eyes for what i’ve been done for the past month february. Then i realize, i wasnt really reflecting myself days ago. Gee, i’m ashamed of it. He told me about my mistakes i made that is quite essential. Though i could reply him by saying ‘how could you say this after weeks after?’ instead i bow down my ego and force myself to focus on ‘how to work on my weakness’.
On daily working life, sometimes you’re in condition that force yourself to act fast. What i did is i was acting far too fast i forgot that i’m not a single player on the battle field. I’ve to admit that now ‘again’ i really want to cover my face from all people. Hence, i couldnt and i believe deep down inside my heart, i wont cover up my mistake. I’m able enough to admit and walk again.
It’s a shame thing for me yet it’s a way to learn more about how to conduct your work in timely manner.
Other issue is age different at my working environment that somehow distract my tasks. But then, as we are working in proffesional way, i’ve being told that we’ve to forget about age issue. Focus on who-what is the task-with whom you’ve to coordinate etc. Outside the workplace, then you’ve to follow the life rules-bow down to the elder and eldest-.
Back again, I know and realize sometimes i was too overwhelmed when i got an agreement that i forgot to hold on the ground. Of course it will affect my ’sight’! Sigh…
As in per discussion with my co-worker, he mention that i dont have to be worried cause i’m still young and the more experience i gain the better planning i will make in the future. I definitely take his advice. Yes, the show must go on.
I rewind our discussion and most of them were true meanwhile the rest werent true (meaning: i was doing a good thing, it’s not a defense, pals, it really is).
Weirdly, i remember a program on Kontiki Radio this morning. There was a guy-i think he’s quite phenomenon motivator, but i forget his name- saying human tend to see what other do/think is wrong but what we do is always right. Try to be like a ’sun’ that shine their lights without any border, the light was-is and will remain the same, it’s just the way it is. We have to learn to be like the sun by accepting critics,develop our self to be a better person and last react towards other by supporting them without giving such wrong feedback (not only complaining but a real help action).
I found myself getting more flexible to face critics. I’m fully aware that me-my self for the past 5 years has been very defensive. I learn from the past. Back in ‘working group’ i join every wednesday here in Banda Aceh, we were discussing about ‘UNDERSTANDING YOUR SHAPE’ based on The Purpose Driven Life chapter 31 by Rick Warren. It’s mentioned that we may ’serve’ in our community by our painful experiences beside five other types.
I’m surprised that since morning i got the same ‘message’ from everywhere but not aware the connection til minutes ago. Starting from radio, and then working group and the last is my discussion with my co-worker, it’s connected!
I am seeker of knowledge, i am talib. I will move on to continue my work. Yes i made some mistakes and i believe i will still do some mistakes in the future, but i will move on.
The pain cant stop the ‘plan’.
