ACID SASH

one of my friend sent me an article (in Jakarta Post) regarding Abu Bakar Baasyir statement weeks ago… when i first read it, i smile and then i said to my self those are such a fiddlesticks.

i hope all of you who read this post are open minded kind of people. I believe i have my own freedom to speak up about my mind.

Ok, so he said that woman who wear scantily are more dangerous than a bomb. Daa??!!.. I feel pity for those statement. It shows the fear of man towards woman. Helo??? If you have a strong fundamental of your beliefs than no thing shall interupt you within your regular activities or life. Why would a men feel offended when a woman wear tight t-shirt or sexy dress? It is what’s on their mind that activate their ID (remember psychoanalysis!?)within their self. I’m not saying as a woman we can wear sexy dress or tight shirt or bell bottom jeans, o well you name it-there are lots of variety of style - ALL THE TIME - that can be concluded into ‘INTOLERABLE’ for mens whose having the same perpective like the man above. But, gosh… dude, dont be so silly!

We all know that there’s a manner. True! We have to conduct our life based on culture in our society. True! But hey,u cant close your eyes to realize  life’s moving forward with all globalization issues  that happens every second of your life. So of course it affect how woman dress nowadays. Just be aware that making a filter of every information that comes into you is truly essential..  let me continue again after this passage..*

Talking about faith, you have to grow it within your self, no matter what occurs in the outside of you, your space or your own community. Find out with appropriate effort  Life’s going rapidly. If you try to force someone for not being able to express their self -despite whether its wrong or right -then we’re moving backward to 17th century-speaking of liberty.

Mind, what’s in your brain,is the one that control yourself. In fact we can easily get affected by whatever we see (eyes is the very first stage of outward intervention to our mind before it goes to our very soul). As long you can redeem your desire beneath your soul, nothing will happen. And it will be remains still if you have a good and permanent faith.

I’m not against for those woman who cover all their body or wearing a veil unless it’s not what they really want, then i will be the opponent. It’s odd to see someone doing thing that they dont like but they pretend they’re doing it  by their heart,while when they’re outside of the ground, they expressed theirself more than you can imagine. It’s happening, believe me!

* back again. So what i’m trying to say is dont be hypocrit!! Alas, dont be like farisi (dunno the english word for those word) who lives in Israel and they tend to make a superficial act of devotion by praying beside the road so people can see them but when they’re alone, they’re not really following the words of God. In Indonesia one example is people who enjoying and turn out fantasizing ’something’ through kareoke video that shows dangdut singer who wear dress like (you can imagine) secretly. This you may find easily within the population here specially people from low class society. For upper class, you know better the example of them - yet they’re believers.

Well try to educate your mind, fellow!! Dont say that woman gives a seduction when they wear just a shirt or dress where you can see their bare hand or feet. Coz you know what, eventough the woman only wearing normal dress like loose shirt and jeans, raping still happens. See, it’s what in your mind who can control YOU and just YOU!

Is it a power of a woman to control men by using their sexuality? Indeed, it had been happened since thousand years ago. I dont know the reason behind any woman’s intention to use that. I dont agree to become a woman like that. I mean if woman try to look nice and beautiful then it’s fine. As a woman, let’s stay normal, let’s stay equal by not making domination towards different sex. It’s even worst if you becoming like ’spiteful woman’ (dont want to put harsh word in my post) who like to exhibit their body. Well, any of you may say, it’s not possible to have equal relation for both woman and man. For those of you who thinks like that, try to think deeper i would say.

Equality is not a stage where you cannot have an argument or different opinion that enable you to be in the right position thus makes you in higher position,nope it’s not like that. But i can say that equality is when you’re in stage to give respect towards each other without loosing your ego. Patriarkhal system makes it’s quite difficult, but as i told you, we’re living in modern society. Though most of religion in this universe put a man as a leader in the family it doesnt mean that woman are slave or that we have to be under Man . I’m fully aware that every decision of each family made is coming from all side (wife&children), but Father-Husband is the captain of the boat AND FOR SURE not a MASTER. Hope you’ll get my perspective.

Ok then, so we, as a woman have a freedom to express ourself by not forgetting our custom (too much also not good, rite?).  Man, behave your self, educate your mind. So are you still afraid or get offended to see how woman dress in this 21st century? give your self a break dude!!

To you ( you know who you are),

Exactly in upcoming two weeks you wont be here with us. Here i am drowning to imagine of loosing you, my friend

You thought me how to become a woman with pride

You thought me for always be true to my heart

You’re one among my few friends who always give opinion honestly ( gosh, you dont know how much i’m bored with fake words from people) and that’s really important for me

Spending my time with you wasnt a waste of time, cause we always share our thoughts without have to be afraid of hurting each other

But we’re both aware, YOU are really like to talk craps!

Again, though sometimes you change into spoil bratzz, but i would like to say thank for Your willingness to celebrate my birthday in Sabang eventhough it was only you-alone- to go there Your willingness to listened my endless thoughts Your kindness to cook us breakfast, lunch, dinner Your support for me to deal with all problems your honest opinion no matter how bad or good i am Your crazyness that makes me laugh all time Your willingness to find one article in LOGA related to my job

Last… Thank you for showing me a real friendship Of course i cant showing my feeling in front of you..coz it would be horrible..

Here’s a song lyric (that you love) for you dear nirmala :

"You can reach me by railway You can reach me by trailway You can reach me on an airplane You can reach me with your mind You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man I done care how you get here, just get here if you can You can reach me by sail boat, climb a tree and swing rope to rope Take a sled andslide down the slope, into these arms of mine You can jump a speedy coltm cross the border in a blaze of hope I dont care how you get here, just get here if you can…. There are hills and mountains between us Always something to get over If i had my way, surely you would be closer I need you closer You can windsurf into my life, take me up on a carpet ride You can make it in a big baloon, but you better make it soon You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab men I dont care how you get here, get here if you can"

Wishing u get married soon and get a job soon plus a chance to join IEE conference!!

With a lot of love

"Gosh, it’s still 3 hours to go to Banda Aceh!" i said to myself. I’ve stayed in meulaboh and also calang for the past 5 days to gather some information regarding sanitation clinic as well the progress of our project, community nursery in Kuala Meurisi. I’m so tired and i feel asleep!When i woke up, the clouds is already dark. I put on my headphone and then listening mp3 songs. I fell asleep (again) but suddenly i woke up (again) when i heard my driver talking with my colleagues who sit behind me. Then i asked them, what they’re talking about. Instead of replying my answer, our driver set aside the car and went out with my colleague.

When i look out the window, i saw 2 couples doing something. I get out from the car and try to figure out what are they doing at this time in such a dark place. When i get closer, i can see that the woman are taking river shrimp for the net. Their husband were still in the river trying to  catch the shrimp. My colleague talking with them with acehnese which obviously i couldnt understand, but then Pow (my co-worker) translate it to me. Afterthat i know that it’s the only thing that they can do to cover their family needs. They sell the shrimp in the next morning at the market. Pow wants to buy all of it. For 1 kg they sell it for Rp 30,000. Then i talked to them, Thank God they can speak bahasa!!

I found out that each night the couples might get the shrimp as much as 6 kgs. Then i took their picture, i really admire their willingness to move on. They still lives in the shelter-you may see this condition until now in most of Aceh Area-. When i check my watch it’s already 11.30 PM. We’ve to continue our trip. Before we leave the woman asking will i want to stay at their place and i replied by saying i would love to but i’ve to continue to work tommorow…and she smile at me. One other thing that i found out is that there are still couples working together, it’s so romantic! I wish i can have those experience, working together with the one you love —he he he…

"You decide what you want - and the path will be open for you"

PS: to someone down there, i really want to move on with you,,will we meet again in the future?? ———alas, perhaps i’m wasting my time@#$#$@#@$

hmm, hujan deres banget diluar,tadi abis jalan2 sama anak2… Kemarin malem seru berath farewell partynya ernesth di Pace Bane dan yang lebih seru lagi kemarin gw pake Sari. aduuuuhhh lucu banget sarinya!Jadi pengen beli. Secara mala bilang sari di jakarta harganya mahal boneng, bagusan beli di India. Lah kapan gw ke Indianya?!$!%@#^

Udah hampir tiga minggu ga ketemu teman yang super duper nganngenin…entah dimana lagi tu orang.Bujug deh hari gini apa iya ga bisa ngabarin gituuuu?

Seru juga tadi liat2 perkembangan temen2 di sini (aka friendster)..haduh seneng plus sedih ngeliat perkembangan orang2.. Seneng dalam artian udah banyak yang berhasil and most of them are my friends since elementary school. Gosh, we’re like running in the race nowadays, or it’s just what i feel?! What if you’re blessed yet you dont know how to give thanks for what you have? I feel kinda sad also cause i miss my friends. Moving towards according your plan is really necessary but unfortunately nothing is going smooth in life. It’s quite weird to see my mood lately.  Yesterday, i was so full of energy, now i’m drowning looking at the screen in front of me…i supposed to do some work since i’m going to have a meeting in Jakarta next tuesday but i’m too lazy to concentrate finishing the proposal.

To date, we’ve been working on making annual plan for oct 06-sep 07. The  question is will i take part on it since my contract finished on feb 07. am i ready to work in Jakarta? Phew, it’s kinda hard question. I’m not really fond of Jakarta city or shall i work there next year. Perhaps people might think it’s to early to ask that kind of question, but i’m fully aware applying for a job in Jakarta is totally high competition then i’ve to prepare if i have to choose this option.

Again, i dont know whether i’m a weak person for not boosting my self to work in Jakarta? or am i too afraid about complicated life that i’ve to face in jakarta? am i moving forward or backward? Can i say it to myself that ‘i am moving forward’ if i continue to work in Aceh? My friends here who works in Aceh Monitoring Mission will finished their duty after the election probably on December. Then i will be on my own although there are still some friends who’s working in UN offices. Once they asked me if i’m sure enough i’ll work for upcoming 1 1/2 year?  at that time i said Yes, but now, i’m questioning it to myself..

Or shall i take a year off? well, there are tons of voluntary work around the globe, or even in Jogja helping the tsunami victims. If i do that will i waste my time? Urrrggghhh, can anyone give me suggestion?