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Huelo guys yuang lagyi muelow-muelow,

ha ha ha, one day after valentine’s day! What’s up guys? Where did you all go last day (dis question dedicated to whom (who) celebrating valentine).. well, if you want to ask me, where did i go, i didnt go anywhere sweetieeee…. just a day before F***lentine day i broke up with my boyfriend! (sorry if you read this, but i believe you’re not a person who likes to read blogs) so it’s only last less than 2 months…ooo gosh, but it was nice for having him for the past days… here’s one good learning for you- woman, dont be too pushy to a Man!.. i realize my self as quite pushy girl but i became like this because of my past. My x-x boyfriend was a xtraprotective kind of guy who insist me to let him know whenever i want to go or whatever i’m going to do. And in return i becoming like that aswell. Though, it’s my nature to look after someone i care. After all  I’m becoming person who’s giving too much of attention specially for details thing e.g. ‘ when are u going back home’, ‘have you took your medicine’, ‘dont forget to get …’ and so on and so on… Blah!! Perhaps, what my high school friends told about me was correct–somethme i’m giving too much attention to others meanwhile they dont really need it–. Alas! Bottom line, i’ve to change my self at least i dont want to waste my time or energy anymore to look after someone if he/she doesnt deserve it or dont really want it. But of course i couldnt change my nature dat easy. So’ giving time for your couple to enjoy his/her time alone is important ( i just knew it after i broke up, S**t!). Hence, he/she will know that they still have their own life that they can do what ever they want to do happyly. You can not hold him/her too tight cause they’ll run away. It’s happened with me. Ha ha ha… It’s still hurts by the way.. This is my 2nd breakups in 4 months. GREAT!!… the first one happened after 2 years relationship — the second one (i mentioned it already rite)..

The weird thing is after those brokeups, this (lovely) guy told me he’s going to take care of me til i got a decent guy. isnt it lovely? (my first response was-> ‘it’s not and that’s weird’)…. how come ya?! One of my friend, atha a.k.a utin, told me that it’s a good solution –>While he’s taking care of you (sha), you still can open your heart for other guys!– it’s a win-win solution for your case. Hmmm, perhaps it’s true. Too bad i still love him, i really dunno whether i’m able enough for having that kind of relation with 2 sided feeling between us. Damn! The other friends response was, ‘ sha, maybe you dont deserve local guys, find out for bule’……………………………………………………………..DAMN-DAMN!! i wonder how come i can run a relationship with a man who has different nation with me, including character and culture meanwhile i couldnt handle relationship with a man who’s exatly coming from the same tribe?!? Hiks hiks….. tiiiiiidaaakkkk…. he he he…well, we never know?!  I believe you’ll say,’ hey sha, it’s depends on the person, kaleee’

So, what am i going to do next…. like alicia keys says, ‘but you all know we’ll be back next week, i’m saying this love is unbreakable…..’ so i’ll get down with this blog next week, and i’ll tell ya what will happen in upcoming days yawh. Perhaps i will be in Aceh already at that time. Too bad, the internet connection there isnt good. Have i mentioned that i got t job? Yep, my current title nowadays is Program Comm Assistant in Environmental Services Program- one of USAID project, and will based in Aceh for upcoming year. so, stay in touch.

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